It is My Choice How I View My Situation
April of this year was one of dread for me. I found myself bored, lonely and exasperated in life as a wife. I am a stay at home Mother of two and I homeschool. The days can be long and when I stray from a consistent time in God's word - the days are longer and more trying. All I could do when I spent time with the Lord really was grumble, complain and wail about my situation. I am one of those people looking for a victorious life, a smaller waistline, more muscle, better vocabulary, obedient heart to the Lord - yet I am one of those people who does not want to do all the work. I was seeking some easy remedy, some crash diet if you will. The Lord my God said this to me as I was reading in Psalms, "Choose to love. Be a servant." Whoa. When the Lord speaks to me it is clear and direct. He knows I am a simpleton and I might get confused with poetic language or parables. May was loathsome. I was down in the dumps. My marriage, which I thought was actually seemingly improvin